There is so much going on right now that my head is all over the place. I don't really know what I'm getting myself into this summer. I don't know what is expected of me. I realized that all summer I will be at the mercy of other people except when I'm running my section of camp. That kind of scares me but I know that God will take care of me and He is in control. My God is awesome like that. I'm praying that God prepares my heart for this mission I'm getting ready to embark on. Part of me is scared that I'm not prepared enough so I ask that God lay his hand on everything I do this summer. After all it is His work that He is doing through me.
Many people are still asking me how I know that this is what I am supposed to do. Like I said a lot has been going on lately and when that happens I go out and just shoot basketball in my backyard. It tends to calm me down and clear my head. I think its the fact that I don't really have to think about it. Basketball can be really black and white, the ball either goes in or it doesn't, you either dribble or you don't. When I have a basketball in my hands or any sports equipment for that matter I have this peace in my heart and everything seems right, it has been that way ever since I was little. Sports were my outlet and at times my lifeline. Life made sense in athletics. So when people ask how I know, I just do. Sports have been my life ever since I was little, when I depended on them life was ok but losing them allowed me to really find God. When I came back to sports that passion and feeling was still there. God has blessed my life with sports and its only right that I give back to Him through that. Plus I get to travel, get paid, and meet all kinds of new people, God is good. period.
Another little thing I was thinking about tonight as the sun set and the night arrived. I started thinking about all my friends and the things we are going to be doing this summer, camps, abroad, church planting, or just hanging out around town. I love these guys more than they know and I miss them dearly. I know its going to be hard to stay in contact but I started praying tonight when the moon appeared. Then it dawned on me that no matter how far away we are from each other when we go outside at night and look in the sky, we are all looking at the same moon. It's awesome really, how God's creation can put us at such different sports but gives us a way to connect. So if you are ever feeling lonely go out and look at the moon and know that there are people literally all over the world that are praying for you and thinking about you!
I love this, especially about the night sky part. I was thinking about that just the other night, actually. I looooove everything about space, the enormity and grandeur of it all. It just blows my mind- it's basically how God showed off in creation. :)
ReplyDeleteSara, I know what you're going through with the camp thing. Trust me, God has you there for a reason, as you well know. The best part of camp is not knowing at all what you're supposed to be doing, and still seeing God work. As the summer progresses, you'll grow and you'll get better at camp. I'm so excited to hear stories and to hear about what God has done through you and your team. Praying for you!! :)
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