Lately I've been spending a lot of time alone. Either that or I've realized that everybody I have in my life will not always be around. Ever since two weeks ago when we started to clean out my grandparents house this has been on my mind. My grandparents have made such a different and impact in my life. Whether it be based on personality, character, habits. However, it also hit me that in 30 yrs or less I'll probably be doing the same thing in my parents house. I thought about my friends and the people I depend on. A lot of them are graduating in may and then I'm graduating the following may.
I'm going through a lot of emotions right now between those thoughts and dealing with family stuff. I wanted to find comfort in my friends because my family is too busy trying to be strong for each other. I found that I can't always find that comfort in other people. Nobody is always going to be around forever. God, however is always there at all times. No matter the time of night, no matter the problem, not matter what it is God is there. I read a quote the other day that said every night I give my worries to God, He'll be up anyways. It's extremely hard to find that comfort in God especially when you need that shoulder. I've had to accept and find that God alone is my comforter, my shield, my all in all. Nobody can compare.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Joshua 1:9
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
This time last year I found out that I was going to be working for Infinity Sports. I was excited but as time crept closer to actually go I started to get scared. The what-if's started popping through my head. My trust was completely lacking in God. I stumbled downstairs one morning to find my dad watching my grandfather's last sermon. I started listening to it and decided it needed to be my verse. It started out as my verse for the summer and turned into one of my life verses.
My grandfather is now in the home he helped build, he has alzheimer's and doesn't know who I am. Yesterday I went out to the house to mark what I wanted so we can sell the house in the spring. When I got there I was overwhelmed with memories of hunting easter eggs, christmas mornings, card playing, and playing wiffleball or soccer in the yard with my brother. I walked through the house asking myself what do I want. One of the things I found was my grandfather's bible he preached out of. I started looking at it and long behold the bookmark was on Joshua 1:9.
I came home later that night and started talking to my dad about it only to find out there was a longer story behind why he used Joshua 1:9 as his verse in his last sermon: (coming from my dad)
"Your grandfather was in the hospital dealing with different things. When he got out they asked him to preach one more time. He told me he was going to preach on fear. I told him he should use Joshua 1:9. It talked about fear and although Joshua didn't think he could get his people from point A to point B. He didn't know if he was up to it when an angel appeared and told him: Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Your grandfather talked about that and then his situation. He said that if he had to go back and do it all over again he'd do the same thing but base his career and life around this verse. He said that he was not scared of what was coming after death because he would be with God. He wasn't scared of what was going to come because God was going to be there. He was scared of what he was going to experience, what his family was going to have to go through before he died, but he was not scared of dying because he knew what he was going to see."
My dad told me that he would get scared when he was younger and even now. We both fear even though we know its going to be okay. I have trust issues, I get scared of life easy but I find my comfort in knowing that God is always there and so is my family. When I left this summer my parents wrote a card to me. It said a lot but my dad said when I get scared or nervous I read these two verses. Whenever I get scared or nervous, I pull out that card, read what my dad wrote and then read Joshua 1:9.
This time last year I found out that I was going to be working for Infinity Sports. I was excited but as time crept closer to actually go I started to get scared. The what-if's started popping through my head. My trust was completely lacking in God. I stumbled downstairs one morning to find my dad watching my grandfather's last sermon. I started listening to it and decided it needed to be my verse. It started out as my verse for the summer and turned into one of my life verses.
My grandfather is now in the home he helped build, he has alzheimer's and doesn't know who I am. Yesterday I went out to the house to mark what I wanted so we can sell the house in the spring. When I got there I was overwhelmed with memories of hunting easter eggs, christmas mornings, card playing, and playing wiffleball or soccer in the yard with my brother. I walked through the house asking myself what do I want. One of the things I found was my grandfather's bible he preached out of. I started looking at it and long behold the bookmark was on Joshua 1:9.
I came home later that night and started talking to my dad about it only to find out there was a longer story behind why he used Joshua 1:9 as his verse in his last sermon: (coming from my dad)
"Your grandfather was in the hospital dealing with different things. When he got out they asked him to preach one more time. He told me he was going to preach on fear. I told him he should use Joshua 1:9. It talked about fear and although Joshua didn't think he could get his people from point A to point B. He didn't know if he was up to it when an angel appeared and told him: Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Your grandfather talked about that and then his situation. He said that if he had to go back and do it all over again he'd do the same thing but base his career and life around this verse. He said that he was not scared of what was coming after death because he would be with God. He wasn't scared of what was going to come because God was going to be there. He was scared of what he was going to experience, what his family was going to have to go through before he died, but he was not scared of dying because he knew what he was going to see."
My dad told me that he would get scared when he was younger and even now. We both fear even though we know its going to be okay. I have trust issues, I get scared of life easy but I find my comfort in knowing that God is always there and so is my family. When I left this summer my parents wrote a card to me. It said a lot but my dad said when I get scared or nervous I read these two verses. Whenever I get scared or nervous, I pull out that card, read what my dad wrote and then read Joshua 1:9.
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