No Fear

Did you know that in every book of the bible it talks about fear?
Did you know we are not born with fear but it something we develop over time?
As children we roll down hills, jump off 2 story buildings, run into the street, do the unimaginable until we get hurt.

Two years ago I started this blog talking about my adventure on camp but it was really about dealing with fear. Last year I wrote in this blog about fear with my grandfather dying. 6 months ago I wrote about how fearful I was of being in Nashville and what to do with my life. Now as I sit here in the beginning of another summer I fear. I fear the future because of the unknown. As I flew back from England I realized that I fear jumping out of a plan. I also realize that I fear losing control.

I think about life and the fears it holds; being alone, not succeeding, not doing what is right, letting people down, flat out failing. I also think of all those things and what I have learned from letting people down, failing, being alone. I've seen the strength it gives me. I see that I can't do it alone. I see that God does it through me. As I look/looked for places to go to grad school I feared what I would do with my free time, I feared being along and starting over. More than that I fear not accepting a challenge, not defeating another obstacle. I fear, fear.

As I get older and become more rational about jumping out of a building or off a plane or rolling down a hill I also find myself being hard headed and stubborn. I see myself wanting to push myself just to see if I can stand. God tells us that he will also be with us, he will also provide, he will be our comforter, our all in all, He is all we need. So it shouldn't matter if I'm at home, 2 hours away, or 12 hours away I find comfort that God is there, always and forever. There is no fear when believing and trusting in God. There is only a push to do what is needed to do...for myself, for others, for God.